I have not fallen off the face of the earth! But I HAVE been talking with a knowledgeable person about a book. As in, writing one. As in, being a published author. As in, having my face and name on the cover. As in...... Well, you get the idea.
These conversations have been interesting/informative. But this month they got a little scarey; they wanted to see some material. That meant I had to hustle to transcribe a sermon and polish it up a bit. After multiple days of long hours, I finally hit the "Send" button.
That small act felt a lot like hitting the post button for this blog the first time. "What will people think? Will they enjoy reading what I've written? Will it benefit anyone?" And the worst thought of all, "Will they say it's nice only to keep from hurting my feelings?!" Sigh!
Putting your thoughts on paper and handing them to others for consideration can be frightening!
The story below is one I used to illustrate a point in the sermon transcription I sent the publisher. Let me know what you think. And thank you for continuing to check in on Embrace the Grace!
(Please remember this is from a sermon I preached. The story explains why I believe that life is a journey with many twists, turns and decisions to be made along the way.)
This
journey is also full of seasons. In
Galatians 6:9 we read, “Do
not become weary in doing good, you will reap in due season if you do not give
up.”
You will reap. Some of you need to jot that down.
Ecclesiastes 3:1, “For
everything there is a season.”
The concept of “seasons” is especially true for women. I’ve always enjoyed working with women. Teaching Bible studies; leading prayer
groups; planning events; speaking for conferences and retreats. I love it all!
As a very young pastor’s wife, our state women’s director
took me under her wing and began to train me. She added me to her team of leaders and I
blossomed!
When you combine my work ethic, my delight in helping others
and her need for youthful excitement on her team – well, you get the picture. It was meant to be a great situation. But when you allow giftings to get out of
balance, they become a train wreck in the making.
I began spending longer and longer hours working on the
various projects. Juggling here and
there to create time. Sometimes the
events required that I be away from home for several days. Frank helped when he could. But most often, I
stole time for these efforts from my girls.
“Don’t bother me right now, Sweetie. Mom’s making calls about the next
meeting.” “I’ll take care of that
later. There’s a deadline for
this!” “You just watch this one short
movie and I’ll be finished.”
And that was mild.
More often, I simply had no reserve energy left for being patient with
the most important gifts God had given to me.
I smiled and taught and listened to everyone else. I worked to meet the needs of everyone else
before offering those same attentions to my family.
After a few years of this, there came a season change. God began gently speaking to me about
resigning my spot on the leadership team.
I knew His voice. I recognized
His nudge.
But instead of obeying, I negotiated. “I’ll ask to be cut back on my responsibilities. The director won’t mind that. I love being part of this team, Lord! It’s a great ministry outlet for me. Surely, YOU meant for me to serve here. You made me a leader by nature. YOU provided this opportunity!”
And so it went. But
God saw much further down the road than I could see. He heard my deepest prayer – to have a
healthy family. And He knew I couldn’t
achieve that on the path I was traveling.
Jacob’s wrestling match with the angel looked a lot like
what I was experiencing as I tried to find a compromise point.
“Lord, please! Don’t
ask me to give this up. This opportunity
may never come my way again.”
Finally, a friend dropped by to visit me one afternoon. I stopped everything in order to give her my
full attention. The visit was so
unexpected. I knew she must have some serious need that would require my best
advice and most intense prayer!
She wasted no time in getting right to the point. “Sheri,” she looked me right in the eye. “I’ve been sent here by the Lord to tell you
something.”
It wasn’t exactly the opening I’d imagined; but she had my
attention.
“There is something you’re supposed to give up. And it’s important that you do it right
away. He hasn’t told me what it is. I just know this is urgent. That’s why I had to see you today.”
Tears sprang to my eyes and began to roll onto my blushing
cheeks.
She reached for my hand, afraid she had offended me. “Are you okay?”
“I know exactly what I have to give up, Diane. I’ve been struggling with it because I don’t want
to. But this helps me know I must
obey. Thank you for taking the risk of
talking with me like this.”
My friend prayed for me, then left. I picked up the phone right away and called
the women’s director to resign my post.
Peace flooded my heart.
For about seven years, I had nothing to do with women’s
ministry. It was a quiet; dormant time
for me. Not easy at all. But I knew my choice had been the right one.
I didn’t understand about seasons then. I thought I would never serve in that
capacity ever again. But remember, obedience to God is always rewarded!
I have now travelled all over this country and to many
foreign nations preaching and teaching.
I’ve worked with larger groups and experienced so much more as a leader
than I could ever have imagined then.
Obedience in that season brought a more
bountiful harvest in this season!
(Hope you found some encouragement in this story. I'd love to hear your thoughts.)
"I knew His voice. I recognized His nudge."
ReplyDeleteI LOVE that line. It's vintage Sheri Hawley. And I love hearing that you are taking those scary steps forward into the next fruitful season of your ministry life.
And the story you told? Applicable to all of us--no matter our season or our story.
Ah, Friend! You always know just how to encourage! :-)
DeleteSo very happy to hear about your book--yay!
ReplyDeleteWe have been in a hard season and it was encouraging to be reminded that obedience to God will reap a harvest in time. Trusting and waiting--still working on those lessons. Thank you for sharing what you have learned.
Deb Mantik
Praying your harvest time will come soon!
DeleteLove it, I think often of a message at one of those ladies events that you were apart of. the speaker spoke about how we can see the true fruit we possess by how we treat the gifts in our home. Yes, to everything there is a RIGHT season. Great word for us women. Love how the Lord loves so much that he sent a messenger. His goodness chasing you down.:) Ps 23
ReplyDeleteSuch a perfect illustration! Thanks for sharing!
DeleteThank you for sharing. I needed to hear that in this season of my life. Over the past few years God has put people in my life to help me realize I was putting work ahead of Him and ahead of family. This post help reaffirm what God has been telling me. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteBeth Anderson
Thankful it was an encouragement! Obedience brings the Father such joy....I'm convinced! :-)
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